Jackie's Little corner

I'm sick and tired. I'm ready for school to end but I'm not ready at the same time, I want to see my friends and continue to laugh with them but that wont last for long. Growing up and understanding the fact that you're becoming an adult is traumatizing, you cant rely on your parents anymore and  you have to deal with having to fend for yourself. How do people deal with that? I find it really strange, I cant seem to grasp the fact that